February 15th, 2009

Time: 02:02 am

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go Will you won't you, be the one I always know When I'm losing my control, the city spins around You're the only one who knows, you slow it down i wish you were the kind of man that i need my man to be.

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January 2nd, 2009

Time: 02:39 pm

What I'm searching for to tell it straight, I'm trying to build a wall Walking by myself down avenues that reek of time to kill If you see me keep going be a pass by waver Build me up, bring me down just leave me out you name dropper Stop trying to catch my eye I see you good you forced faker Just make it easy You're my enemy you fast talker I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe What am I here for I left my home to disappear is all I'm here for myself Not to know you I don't need no one else Fit in so good the hope is that you cannot see me later You don't know me I am an introvert an excavator I'm duckin' out for now a face in dodgy elevators Creep up and suddenly I found myself an innovator Change, change, change, I want to get up out of my skin tell you what if I can shake it I'll make this something worth dreaming of

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July 10th, 2008

Time: 01:14 am

i miss you too.

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March 1st, 2008

Time: 12:26 am

I hope that someday you will see my good intentions in the past, and that you will forgive me, and maybe we can get along. That would be nice. Sometimes I wonder if the only way for us to have an amazing time together would be to go back in time...

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January 6th, 2008

Time: 02:41 am Current Mood: restless

And when it comes down to it, the truth is- my heart is still so broken. And at a few rare times when I let myself think about it..I feel it, and it hurts more than anything I could ever imagine. And I miss you, and you aren't the same person anymore. You're gone. I just want to tell you that I still love you, but it's only a waste of air, now that I am wasting away loving someone who doesn't exist anymore. Missing someone who doesn't miss me. I feel these things when i think about you, and I hate myself for honestly still hoping that you might feel things like this...even for a moment. But who are you? It's a mystery to us both I guess. You're trying to figure it out, and looks like the more you search your soul I see how much of it you've lost. : (

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December 13th, 2007

Time: 01:31 am Current Mood: angry

I hate finals with all my heart. but hey, guess who booked herself a ticket to florida? ; ) Jan 12th I will be in warm comforting weather and forgetting about everything for a week.

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November 16th, 2007

Time: 12:45 am

I've worked every day this week along with homework and class and i'm tired as hell. I am going to book a flight to florida asap and stay with rachel for a week during my extra long x-mas break....I can't wait to go to West Palm Beach! ohhh mannn... I need to get out of worcester.

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November 7th, 2007

Time: 11:53 pm Current Mood: cheerful

For photography class we needed to think of how we saw ourselves, what defines us...and to my surprise the first thing that I thought of when I thought of myself was me with the little kids that I watch. They've taught me more than any professor could. They're more than just my job. Maybe it's a sign that being an elementary teacher is the right thing for me. I always pushed that thought away because my mom taught kindergarten and I thought teaching would never be for me. But over the past year I've realized that I might have been completely wrong.

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November 1st, 2007

Time: 03:02 am

Today was a good day. I needed one. Oh, and can I please find a man sometime soon?! I'm tired of little boys.

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October 31st, 2007

Time: 12:44 am

I don't know where I'm supposed to go. I wish I could get out of here right now...

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