There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down
i wish you were the kind of man that i need my man to be.
What I'm searching for
to tell it straight, I'm trying to build a wall
Walking by myself
down avenues that reek of time to kill
If you see me keep going
be a pass by waver
Build me up, bring me down
just leave me out you name dropper
Stop trying to catch my eye
I see you good you forced faker
Just make it easy
You're my enemy you fast talker
I can say I hope it will be worth what I give up
If I could stand up mean for the things that I believe
What am I here for
I left my home to disappear is all
I'm here for myself
Not to know you
I don't need no one else
Fit in so good the hope is that you cannot see me later
You don't know me
I am an introvert an excavator
I'm duckin' out for now
a face in dodgy elevators
Creep up and suddenly
I found myself
Change, change, change,
I want to get up out of my skin
tell you what
if I can shake it
I'll make this
something worth dreaming of
I hope that someday you will see my good intentions in the past, and that you will forgive me, and maybe we can get along. That would be nice. Sometimes I wonder if the only way for us to have an amazing time together would be to go back in time...
And when it comes down to it, the truth is- my heart is still so broken. And at a few rare times when I let myself think about it..I feel it, and it hurts more than anything I could ever imagine. And I miss you, and you aren't the same person anymore. You're gone. I just want to tell you that I still love you, but it's only a waste of air, now that I am wasting away loving someone who doesn't exist anymore. Missing someone who doesn't miss me. I feel these things when i think about you, and I hate myself for honestly still hoping that you might feel things like this...even for a moment. But who are you? It's a mystery to us both I guess. You're trying to figure it out, and looks like the more you search your soul I see how much of it you've lost.
I hate finals with all my heart.
but hey, guess who booked herself a ticket to florida? ; )
Jan 12th I will be in warm comforting weather
and forgetting about everything for a week.
I've worked every day this week along with homework and class and i'm tired as hell. I am going to book a flight to florida asap and stay with rachel for a week during my extra long x-mas break....I can't wait to go to West Palm Beach! ohhh mannn...
I need to get out of worcester.
Today was a good day. I needed one.
Oh, and can I please find a man sometime soon?! I'm tired of little boys.
I don't know where I'm supposed to go.
I wish I could get out of here right now...